things coming to what feels like an end.
i guess who knows?
things could change....maybe.

relationships changing into something new,
something good?

"i've always been good at holding on tight, now i'm not much for letting go"
- Rachael Kilgour "Sorry"

I'm all done!
DONE! DONE! DONE!
DOOBIE, DOOBIE, DONE!
: )

DONE.

bed, bed, bed

i really need to figure out this sleep thing
i haven't been sleeping very good the last few weeks
either i fall asleep early and wake up around 12 needing to wrap some things up
or i wake up to early in the morning and i have strange/icky dreams and i'm 1/2 awake the rest of the morning.

and february was so long, that it lasted into march

craving an end to winter
to lay in the grass
and tromp in the mud
a satisfying "squish"

I think i have many souls, well several. A few. My spring soul is waiting, and anticipating her break out. She was fooled by those drippy days where we could see grass, just a few weeks ago. She rests under a garden, a bed of yellow tulips and waits until the ground unfreezes and the flower buds peek above ground. That little taste of spring woke her early and now she is waiting. Feeling impatient, with the cold almost unbearable for her. Feeling like a kindergartener on their nap time mat, awake but forced to wait. Hoping that the teacher will pick them to be the wake up fairy, or for even just that little tap on the shoulder that means they can get up, put their mat away, and move on to the next thing.

"and i said "what's a crocus?",
and you said "it's a flower." "

I got perfect scores on 2/5 of my GED tests. True it was real easy, but i'm excited!

I have 3 more tests to go. Writing (the one I am the most worried about) is this coming Tues, and math and reading are March 3rd. I think I may need to brush up on my math skills this next week, too!

They removed my aunts cyst and tumor from her falopian tubes. She is going to start treatment in a few weeks, probably some kind of chemo. She has to get a colonoscopy in 3 weeks to check out some polyps. Hopefully all ends up well.

Today was nice. I had a grown up lunch and shopping meeting with Miss Westerlund in Hinckley. I like driving and not feeling strained by time, turning up the music and stretching my vocal chords. Driving to work, I am always worried I might be late, driving home I am always real tired and just want to be home. I also tend to be about 15 mins late, so I always feel stressed driving. It was nice to not be for once. I need to work on that whole being on time thing. Eh.

Roundelay has been going in and out of heat. She's a becoming a grown lady cat. Though you wouldn't know it from her size, she is still just a tiny thing. She is also a terror. I woke up this morning and the contents of the closet in the computer room was spread all over the floor. I don't know how she made such a mess! She also enjoys pulling things apart and knocking things (usually breakable) over.

you miss news when you lack time at home

dad just told me...













My godmother and favorite aunt has cancer in her fallopian tubes. They will know more, like how bad it is, in about a week. I am scared and sad. That word freaks me out. I am hoping that is all it will be, a word. A word that will not harm my aunts spirit, or life.

kiss me goodbye, i'm defying gravity!

I am feeling really great.
Really productive about many things.
I wanna do so many things, and get so many things done.
GED IS IN SIGHT!
mmhmmm!
: )